When
Words Failby Jill
© 2000
"There are times when silence has the loudest voice."
- Leroy Brownlow
Today Is Mine
The sun is just starting to rise as Jimmy makes his
way down to the hotel lobby. It’s
a bit earlier than he usually likes to start his day, but he’s still in a
good mood. It’s amazing what a full
night’s sleep can do for one’s disposition.
He enters the lobby and looks around. Ike isn’t there yet so he takes a seat to wait.
The night before, Ike and he had agreed to meet at 6:30 and go find
some breakfast before starting their ride back to Sweetwater.
Jimmy glances at the clock above the counter.
It’s only 6:28; Ike should
be here any time.
When Ike hasn’t appeared fifteen minutes later, Jimmy
decides to go get him.
“The lazy bum. Musta
stayed out too late last night an’ now he can’t wake up,” Jimmy grumbles good-naturedly
under his breath as he arrives at Ike’s door.
“Ike,” he says loudly, pounding on the door with a
fist. “Time ta get up ya slug-a-bed!”
Jimmy waits for the door to open and Ike to let him
know he’s awake now, but Ike doesn’t respond.
“Ike!” Jimmy tries again. Still no grinning face appears behind the door. Unexpectedly, Jimmy is hit by a feeling of
great unease.
“Ike, this ain’t funny. Now git up an’ open this door!”
When there is still no answer, Jimmy dashes back downstairs to the
front desk where the clerk is just taking up his position for the day.
“Ah, Mr. Hickok.
What can I do for you this fine morning?”
“My friend ain’t answering me an’ I’m afraid he might
be hurt er sick! Do ya have another
key to his room so I can check on him?” Jimmy asks, almost in a panic.
“Well, we don’t normally give out keys to anyone other
than.......”
The clerk never finishes his sentence because he suddenly
finds himself starring down the business end of a very shinny colt revolver.
“Look here mister!
My friend needs my help. Now
either ya give me that key right now or ya will be takin’ names at the pearly
gates before breakfast!” Jimmy knows
he’s probably overreacting, but he can’t shake this new feeling that somehow
Ike is in trouble.
With a trembling hand, the clerk gives over the extra
key to Jimmy, who re-holsters his gun. “Thank-you-very-much-and-have-a-good-day.”
The startled man stares after Jimmy as he dashes back
upstairs to Ike’s door.
Entering the room, the first thing Jimmy notices is
that the bed hasn’t been slept in. The
second is that there’s no Ike. His
saddle bags are still there along with his bed roll, but no Ike. Jimmy is now sure that something is dreadfully
wrong. He quickly gathers up Ike’s
things, and after collecting his own stuff, returns both keys to the wary
clerk. He rushes to the Livery stable,
hoping he’ll find Ike there laughing at his panic, but knowing somehow that
he won’t.
He walks into the stable and instantly realizes that
Ike’s horse and saddle are missing. ‘Ike
wouldn’t just ride out somewhere without telling me?’ Jimmy asks himself,
and he’s pretty sure the answer is no. A piece of paper catches his eye and he picks it up and unfolds
it. It’s a letter of some kind, but
he can’t read it. Ike would know better
than to leave a note for him! Every
second Jimmy’s suspicions and worry are growing.
Just then a stable boy enters to start his morning
chores. He’s a lad of about twelve
or thirteen. Seeing the boy, an idea
pops into Jimmy’s head and he hurries over to him.
“Hey boy,” he calls. The boy looks up questioningly and glimpsing Jimmy’s gun, starts
to back away.
“I ain’t gonna hurt ya.
I was just wonderin’ if ya can read?”
“Yeah,” the boy answers, not quite sure what this
strange man wants.
“Will ya read this for me?” Jimmy asks and holds out
the note.
“Sure,” he replies with a shrug.
Dear Mr Hickok,You don’t know me, but we have met before. You killed my brother and I thought is was high time we met again. I’ll be looking forward to seeing you tomorrow in Willow Canyon. Come quickly, I hate delays. Oh, and I took your friend along for some company. He’ll be waiting for you here.Sincerely,Ralph TerryP.S. Come alone or your friend might have to cut his visit short!
Jimmy swears loudly when the boy has finished and
grabs the note back. He hurries over
to his horse and saddles it, leaving the young stable hand starring bewildered
after him.
Jimmy doesn’t know who the heck this Ralph Terry is,
but he does know Ike is in serious trouble and it’s his fault. Cursing himself for not having stayed out with
Ike last night, he quickly loads both his and Ike’s things onto his horse
and rides out, heading for Willow Canyon.

And on the ground is where Ike has remained for the
last couple of hours, wavering back and forth through pain filled consciousness.
When he hears the sound of a horse entering the camp,
Ike slowly opens his eyes again. It’s
the lookout returning. He confers
for a moment with Terry and then dismounts as Terry walks over to Ike.
“I’m glad to see you’re awake. I wouldn’t want you to miss out on seeing your
friend Hickok,” Terry sneers at him. Ike
doesn’t give him the satisfaction of any facial response.
Terry stares down at the boy on the ground, and for
just a moment, an old feeling stirs inside of him. He sees the young man’s obvious pain and for just a second he wonders
when he became so cruel that he started torturing innocent boys. But the thought is gone just as fast as it
comes and he shakes his head to clear it. He’s
waited too long for this revenge, and he’s not going to go soft, just when the
fun’s about to begin. Terry smiles poisonously
at Ike and quickly motions for two of his men. They come over and roughly drag
the battered Ike to his feet.
“Get him ready,” he snarls at them. “I’ve got a very nice reception planned for
Mr. James Hickok.” He then turns and
walks away, leaving Ike in their “tender” care.

“If you want to see your friend die, by all means
keep shooting,” the man with the gun says in a sickly sweet voice, and Jimmy
knows instantly this is Ralph Terry. For
a moment, Jimmy weighs his chances of dropping Terry before he could hurt
Ike, but quickly realizes he doesn’t have a chance. Even if he could get Terry first, there are
still three other men and he could never get them all. And with Ike standing there defenseless, the
stakes are too high to try. Not having
a clue how he is going to get them out of this, he sighs in disgust and throws
his gun on the ground, cursing himself for his hastiness.
“Wadda ya want, Terry?” Jimmy growls. “I don’t even
know ya!”
Seeing Jimmy drop his gun, Terry re-holsters his own
and moves forward as if to have a pleasant conversation, but one of his men
immediately takes his place next to Ike, gun drawn.
“Oh we’ve never met face to face, but we have met,
should I say gun to gun. You shot
my brother in the back as we were leaving the bank in Granite Springs with
our rather large withdraw.”
Jimmy’s mind goes back to a day about a year ago.
He’d just been passing through when he heard the shots and ran to see
what was going on. He’d arrived just in time to see robbers fleeing
the bank after having shot the teller. He
immediately joined the deputy behind a barrel and started returning fire,
and he’d managed to get one man, but the rest got away. It was so long ago and like so many other instances
in his life that he’d almost forgotten it.
Terry has been watching Jimmy closely during the silence,
and finally he speaks again, “I see you remember.”
“You n’ yer brother robbed the bank and killed an
innocent man,” Jimmy says through clenched teeth. “He deserved what he got.”
“That may be so, but blood runs mighty thick you know,
and so I feel it is my brotherly duty to avenge his death. That’s why I’ve been so anxious for this meeting.
You and your friend will be so helpful in setting things right.”
“Ike ain’t got nothin’ ta do with this. Why don’t ya just let him go?” Jimmy retorts, clutching at anything he can
to try and get Ike out of this mess.
“Ah, so his name’s Ike is it? He has been most reluctant to tell me anything,
despite my many attempts to convince him.” Terry turns to Ike, “Isn’t that right, Ike.” Ike musters up enough strength to give him
a tired glare.
At Terry’s words, Jimmy once again glances over at
Ike and Ike meets his gaze with agony filled eyes. This time Jimmy sees the bruises that cover Ike’s face, head, and
chest, as well as the dried blood that has trickled from his mouth and nose.
Jimmy also notices the dark crimson smears of dried blood running down his
arms and knows there is something dreadfully wrong with Ike’s hands. Rage boils over in him at the thought of what
these men have done to his gentle friend, and his temper flairs like a match
in a powder shack. Without even thinking, he starts for Terry, despite the
fact that he is unarmed. Instantly,
the man with the gun on Ike cocks it and takes better aim and Jimmy reluctantly
stops, anger seeping from him.
“He couldn’t tell ya anything if he wanted to! He can’t talk!” Jimmy spits out at Terry.
“Is that so?” Terry says with interest. Turning to Ike, he offers him a twisted smile.
“And I thought that bald head was your only unique feature. Sorry boy, didn’t know you were also a dummy.
I guess my little games weren’t worth anything, but they were still
entertaining,” he adds with a cruel laugh.
Jimmy’s anger again flares up. “Well, Terry, I’m here now! Let Ike go an’ then you an’ me’ll finish this!”
“That’s one solution, but it isn’t the one I’ve been
thinking of.” Terry makes a quick
motion to his men and before Jimmy knows it, they’ve surrounded him, pinning
his arms to his sides. In seconds,
Jimmy’s hands are tied behind him and there is a man on either side restraining
him.
“So now yer just gonna kill me?” Jimmy states coldly.
“Wrong again, boy.
I’ve thought about this for a long time. I loved my brother. I spent
my whole life protecting him, from our own father, from the bullies in town,
and from the law, then in one blink of an eye, you took him away. I’ve had to live a whole year with my grief,
and the only thing that’s helped has been planning my revenge. If I kill you,
it will be over, swift and painless, just like that. Not much satisfaction in a revenge of that sort. On the other hand, if you were to watch someone
you care about suffer, knowing it was your fault, that just might make up
for a little of the pain I’ve endured.” As
Terry explains this malicious plan, the man next to Ike puts away his gun
and retrieves instead a long, black bull whip. Jimmy doesn’t miss the flicker of fear that crosses Ike’s face.
“Don’t do this, Terry!!” Jimmy growls fiercely, straining in vain against the men holding
him.
Ike has been trying to force his sluggish brain to
concentrate on Jimmy and Terrys’ conversation, but he’s finding it extremely
difficult. The pain in his hands isn’t
as noticeable now, but only because it’s been replaced by the numbing pain of
the ropes biting deeper and deeper into his wrists. A jolt of shock and fear runs through him when he sees Johnson bring
out the whip and he knows he’s going to die, and it’s going to be a painful
death. He wishes he could see Buck again
and thank him for being his brother. He wants to tell him how much he means to him, and have him tell
the others as well. His body jerks involuntarily
when he feels the awful sting of the first lash across his back, and then it’s
as if he hears Buck’s voice saying what he’s told Ike so many times; ‘Don’t
let ‘em beat ya! Never let ‘em win!’
Ike looks at Jimmy and sees the horror, guilt, and wrath on his face.
He tries to tell him silently with his eyes that it’s not his fault,
that he doesn’t blame him. Then, even
as the whip comes down on his shoulders and back again, he stands up as straight
as he can, his lips pressed determinedly together.
Jimmy stands there, almost in disbelief at what he’s
seeing. Ike catches his eye and Jimmy
is surprised to see not blame, but understanding and friendship. His opinion of Ike is forever cemented as he
watches him standing there under that whip, his pain showing silently on his
face. As he watches the whip strike
Ike again and again, Jimmy thinks he’s going to be sick.
“STOP!” he yells over and over, but Terry just laughs
at him and signals for Johnson to continue.
After a while, the only sensation Ike has is of pain.
Hot, burning pain that fills his whole body.
It’s long since clouded his vision and he can no longer see Jimmy.
His whole being is wrapped up in fighting off the darkness that threatens
to envelope his mind. ‘Concentrate
on the pain’ he tells himself. ‘Stay awake.’ But it’s no
use, and soon his mind is folded up into numbing blackness.
“IKE!”
Jimmy cries out his friend’s name as he watches Ike’s
knees buckle and he slumps into unconsciousness, still suspended upright from
the tree by the rope around his wrists. He
can’t see Ike’s back, but the thought of what it must look like is enough
to make him gag. Still, the man continues
to strike the unconscious boy.
“ENOUGH!” Jimmy
screams, straining against his captors, his face red with rage and hatred.
This time Terry motions for the torture to stop.
Ike hangs limply from the tree, Jimmy not sure whether he’s dead or
alive.
“Don’t like watching your friends suffer, do you,
Hickok?” Terry sneers at Jimmy.
“Let me go! I
swear I’ll kill you with my bare hands!” Jimmy has fire burning in his eyes now and a hatred inside like
he’s never felt before.
“That’s something that might be very interesting to
see you try and do. It’s tempting,
but unfortunately this little game today has already taken far too much of
my time.”
Terry draws his gun and steps right in front of Jimmy,
pointing it at him and studying him. Underneath
the steaming rage, he sees the pools of immense guilt that are forming in
Jimmy’s soul and he nods, satisfied that his revenge has been successful.
Jimmy sees Terry pull his gun and prepares himself
to die, shot down like a chained dog. He
stares defiantly and angrily back at Terry, but suddenly, Terry moves and
Jimmy is hit hard on the head by the butt of his gun. He barely has time to wonder that Terry didn’t
shoot him before he falls to the ground, unconscious.
After a moment, Johnson moves to where Terry is standing
over Jimmy.
“Why didn’t ya just shoot ‘im, Ralph?” he asks.
“Because I want him to have to live with what he has
done to his friend. Untie him and
leave him there. It’s time for us
to move on.”
Several of the men do as he requests, and then leave
Jimmy lying on the ground.
“What about him?”
Johnson asks, motioning toward Ike.
"Just leave him there,” Terry replies. He walks over and mounts his horse, and the
rest of the gang do likewise. Before
leaving, Terry turns and surveys the devastation that he’s caused. He smiles a slow, satisfied smile and then
kicks his horse and rides out.