SOMETIMES THE PAST COMES BACK...

NOT TO HAUNT YOU

by C.C.

CHAPTER 8

Lou awoke to the whining of Jordan; he was hungry. After nursing, changing and dressing him and herself she left the bedroom and headed to the kitchen. She found Kid & Jimmy seated at the table drinking coffee. "Mornin' ya'll, when do we get started?" They laughed at her, always ready to go. "Let us finish our coffee and we'll head out" Jimmy replied. Kid and Lou looked at each other, knowing life was getting ready to change drastically, just not sure how. They did not allow their look to linger, too many emotions, too many questions.

Buck had been as surprised as Jimmy to see Lou and Kid along with Seth. After getting the same history from both Lou and Kid that Jimmy had gotten yesterday he began to tell them his story and how he met Dawn. Lou thought Dawn was beautiful, this half-breed, like Buck, who had stolen his heart. She could see her and Dawn becoming fast friends. And she really needed a girlfriend. It'd been a long time since she had someone her age to confide in.

When Kid had filled Buck in on the immediate plans - the only plans he was making at this time- Buck excitedly informed him that there was already a cabin on the property, down by the creek. It needed a lot of work but the structure was still sound and he & Dawn would love for Lou and Seth to fix it up and make it their home. Walking away from the girls Buck turned to his old friend and looked at him puzzled, "Kid, are you sure only Lou and Seth will be needin the place?" he questioned. Dropping his head Kid replied "Buck", he let out a slow breath "she's still a married women, now I know you don't understand my convictions, but one of those is that it ain't right for a married person - woman or man to carry on with another, no matter what the circumstance is. It ain't like I don't want us to be a family Buck, but it's got to be legal and all. It's just not the right time", he sighed "never seems to be the right time for us. I hope you can understand that" he looked to Buck for acknowledgment. Buck nodded his understanding to Kid "more importantly I hope she can" Kid added.

Kid and Lou spent their days trying to get the little cabin livable. Kid would start to work as deputy when Lou and Seth moved into the cabin. They worked side by side, communicating little. Kid knew he wanted to get her moved in and then he would start to consider his own future. Always putting her first - it was natural for him to do so. He knew his feelings for her hadn't changed, well they really had, he knew he loved her even more now that he did years ago - but he also knew that she was married and if he stayed around too long he would probably do something he'd regret. Lou hadn't mentioned what her plans were when it came to Robert. He didn't think he could understand if she wanted to go back to him eventually, to try and work things out, maybe try to change him, but he knew she didn't take marriage lightly. Hell, she had turned him down when he knew for sure she loved him because she understood what kind of commitment marriage was. He was afraid she would feel it was her duty to try to make things work - to make sure Seth knew his father. Well, he would think about that later, (when had he become such a procrastinator) he wondered. It was late, he'd head back to Jimmy's for the night. The cabin was fixed up enough for Lou and Seth to begin staying there rather than at Jimmy's.

"Well Lou" leaning over to kiss Seth's head who was playing happily in his crib "I'm gonna head back to Jimmy's, I'll be back in the morning" he turned his attention to her "you gonna be alright?" he questioned her.

Lou looked at him, she was so confused. How did he feel about her, what were his plans for the future? So many unanswered questions. Right now all she really wanted was to run into his arms and have him hold her and tell her he'd never leave. But she knew that this was not the time for that. She was still married, she understood Kid's convictions. Why does he have to be some damn upstanding and moral she thought, realizing at the same time that that was one of the qualities about him she loved so much. "We'll be fine, you go get some rest" she spoke softly. "We've been through a lot these last few weeks." He kissed her on the cheek and mounted Katy, watching him until she could no longer see his image.

Neither rested well that night. Both of them tossing and turning through the night with vivid dreams of the passionate lovemaking they had shared so long ago. Lou craved him so badly, she could feel his breath on her skin, his hands on her body. She wanted to cry out her need for him. It had been so long since she had truly wanted to make love, Robert only took from her. She remembered how her pleasure had always been more important to the Kid than his own. He would drive her crazy and work her into a frenzy, he was so patient-waiting for her to be completely satisfied before he began to think about his own needs. How could she have let him go- she was such an idiot! She cried softly for the man she had let leave her.

Likewise, Kid remembered every inch of her - he could imagine her in his arms, his lips caressing her neck, her shoulders. He remembered the soft giggle it always elicited when he would nibble her earlobe. He shivered thinking about how much he wanted her, how much he needed her. What she used to do to him, was still doing to him. Lou was his first and he was surprised when he and Mary made love because it did not have the same intensity and passion that he and Lou had shared. He was so naive he didn't know there would be a difference, he didn't realize the intensity of his and Lou's lovemaking came from the deep love they shared. He had been disappointed about Mary, but he didn't feel the need to please her the way he always felt the need to please Lou. She was the most important thing when it came to making love. He worked hard at bringing her pleasure, he'd never even think about his needs until she was fully ready for him. Again he shivered at the thought of her under him. He tried desperately to clear his mind of her and the images of their past. He was not successful.

They both welcomed the morning - knowing that keeping busy would take their minds off the night-time images. Kid showed up early and grinned at her. Her heart skipped a beat at his smile, the smile that always touched her. Oh, she thought, this is gonna be harder that I imagined. "Rest well?", he questioned her as he remembered his own fitful night. She shrugged, "I guess." Catching her uneasiness he approached her, "what's wrong Lou?" he asked with concern. "Oh, nothin', she sighed and busied herself. Kid was right behind her, she could feel his closeness and it unnerved her. "Come on Lou, don't hold anything from me. I'm your friend and I want to help you, help you through this time" he urged her to share her problems with him. She was afraid to look at him afraid he'd read her true thoughts. Get a grip on yourself Louise, she told herself sternly. She wasn't ready for the conversation she knew they would eventually have to have, for now she would be content to have him as just a friend.

"Oh Kid, really everything's okay", she faced him, smiling to let him know she really was okay. "Neither me or Seth rested to well last night- guess it's just being alone and the new house and all" she lied. Convinced, Kid continued "if you're afraid I'll stay, I'll make a pallet on the floor." Lou, knowing this would never work; sure she wouldn't be able to stop herself from attacking him if he stayed quickly responded. "No, tonight'll be different, it's just getting used to the new house- I've spent most of my nights alone Kid" she spoke only half truths. But seemingly the Kid accepted her fumbling excuse. They continued their work in completing the finishing touches to make the little cabin into a home, and it was looking more and more like a home.

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